Job Vacancy

I need a friend , as I can find no one around that I can talk to , share my life with , do stuff together, get back to when I feel like talking or doing whatsoever ,share my fears with ,my future dreams,plans ,doubts and silly life routine.
lean my back onto when I see it dark,hopless and not worth living.
Someone that able to handle those tough times we go through, Hence; I thought of posting it as a job.

*Here is the Job details:

Objective : a Friend is needed . " I need a friend and I need it badly."

Job Description :

Requirements:
1- male /female, but a male is preferably , as I 've learnt that women always have issues !
2-age: 29+ ,no place for ppl with middle age crisis .
3- Experience: 10 years + of Listening to ppl , recommendation of being a good friend from several friends,and the ability to share and Talk,not only listen !
4-Driving License: That can drive all the way just to see a friend in need.
5- Outgoing, vivid ,that we can go out together , go to events , moviez,go for coffee,go shopping ,whatsoever
6-Open to life , intellectual, open minded , well dressed is a plus.
7-Revolutionist but not activist .
8-Employed already ,as this is a part time job.and no place for losers
9-well educated and with good manners.I am sorry I can't stand it otherwise.
10-Self Confident , with a bearable ego,religious is a plus.
11-Done with the so so relationships,games,etc ;mature enough .
12-willing to travel."even share those naiive dreams of going to places and travelling the world if we can't afford it , just to enjoy the living dream"
13-Fun to be with.
14-Honest , I hate Liars, I just hate them , hate them hate them. no place for liars and cheaters.
15-a believer: still believes in butterflies in the stomach,love at first sight ,the one,perfect match,ever after love,and those out dated feelings,.. serendipity is one of his/her best movies.
16- Mounir fan is a plus , that we can go to his concerts together.
17-in love with sun,sand,and the sea.
Bonus: As terms of friendship, you will be invited in so many occassions to lunch ,dinner and coffee more often. I don't do gifts anymore in birthdays , but I can do that for you ,no problem.
*eligible for promotion :Best Friend if candidate proved his/her best in being a good friend.

Working Hrs: 24*7 with allowance for inconvenient hrs. 2days off aweek .and 30 days off along the year. public holidays are Off .

You may wonder by now, what is the salary , I can assure you it pays off, not in the terms of money I am sorry! but in the terms of friendship. you will find me there for you , I will be doing my best though,I am a good listener, and think I am fun to be with.

P.S: You don't have to send your resume, as the job opening is closed.Yea, I am sorry ,I reached out the point, that it is me who is not open to life anymore, not willing to open up, not anymore.
call it depression , frustration , or whatsoever.
sincerely,
your good friend.

What are friends for ?

I believe in : a friend in need is a friend indeed !
What if I don't find my friends when I am badly in need for them to be around ??
I address the same question to myself , am I there for them when they need me ??

I been through hard times recently , and only few names I can mention who been there , and they were like doing the show face !
And the rest ! No show at all !

I give excuses all the time, I don't enjoy giving excuses to close ones, especially when it is like I am damn sure they have no excuse ! But I still do and try to play the understanding.
However, this time ....I am sorry.... I am not....I gave up that boring UNDERSTANDING game!

I ran out of all excuses , I can't find you any ! I am sorry ! I can't feel good about it , and can't even blame it on you, inspite the fact that I sometimes blame it on myself ! Yes, being that easy going with them, understanding, flexible and in so many times I just go off my way to meet up with them !

How many times did I call and got rejected in return ? "I know that I do too , but it is most likely as an answer to your previous rejection"
How many times I asked to go out and talk to catch up and so ? and how many times you said you are busy and already have plans !
How many times, you ditched me simply for other ones ?


I can't count the times I found them around me when I really needed them ! They are too few to be memorized !
On the other hand ,I still recall what I simly do !

I am no angel and they are no devil !
They are my friends and I truly love them, I love them even if I receive nothing in return as in unconditional love !
I hang out with them, we get along , I travel still with some of them, we have fun, we laugh , and sure we share lots of things,we have memories, history...But with no present.

I did the blame thing, over and over, that I am sick of doing it again ! With no joy..
I will not blame anyone, not anymore.. I will just take decisions and will not show up again !
I wish I can ! But I know I just can't !

I love them still, but I am sad....I will not blame I will not complain !
It aches that we get apart ! it aches when we are drifting away !
it reminds me of the No Doubt song ! Don't speak !


You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together
always I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believeThis could be
the end It looks
as though you're letting go
And if it's real Well I don't want to know


You know the strangest thing Ever , that those ones you least expect to be there for you, those are the ones who are really there !!
I had that friend who been calling to check on me on a daily basis while we actually were not in touch in years !

I look at myself and think , I paid my dues ! Yea, I think I did ! And you just can't be giving all the time, I too need to take ! As much as I am afraid that I lose them !
I know we become different !
yes, Big differences we have ! yet we still get along !


Why it ended up that way ? Though we were really close and so ?
I have plenty of reasons in mind I am tired of saying them out , maybe I would do someday in addition to the differences we have ! , but today I will just keep my mouth shut and not even complain nor to blame!
But I know that I miss my friends and really wish if I have them There!


Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry !

P.S : I was trigerred by my best friend's call , who just did to ask me to join her going to some concert in coming few days ! though she wasn't there recently ! by no means !
and she knew about the thing that went through ! yet she was not there ! not even by phone !
Though I been around her recently ,not doing any talk in fact as she was doing all the talk and she was enjoying keeping me listening ! and she forgot to ask during her Loooooong talks of any thing related to me ! she wasn't even interested ! she enjoyed Talking and Talking ! she didn't even check on me in any of those 4 times we saw each in a row!! however, I didn't complain about listening ! I am a good listener by nature....but please, no more talks!
Don't speak !