Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Dear Friend..I am sorry ...

Dear Friend

I am sorry if I disappointed you , I am sorry If I was not there for you when you needed me.
I am sorry , I know I had my reasons why I was not there , but I know no enough reasons justifying though ! I know I tried to ! But you didnt listen though !
I know I am busy and got much busier ! I know I should hv hd time for you.
I tried to make it up to you , yet it is like you are refusing it..You are just rejecting me whenever I try ! I am afaid I Lose hope and hence lose you !
I am keen to keep you close..am keen to hv you in my life , and I am sorry I was not there.
I know what you are passing through..I know how hard it feels , how bad it goes , how far I was !
I am sorry again..Hope my appology finds a place to you..Hope I can make it up to you.
I am sorry again.

They just broke up ??!!..she is back single

I do not really know the couple , I do not even know them personally , I know the girl , sort of know her, she is a libra , she is well determined , she knows what she is seeking for , she thinks of marriage and relationships as mush as i do ..she is looking for love ...without settling for less.

she canot accept betrayals..and I canot either !...she is looking for Mr Right as much as myself ! ..she believed in Soulmates and serendipity and I did too ! in fact I still do !

She thought all her demands can be really fulfilled and I think the same.

She loves to give and hopes to take in return , and she hates being taken for granted...I am too !

she is well educated , I wouldnot say an average girl..above average , with special features , I would call her attractive , intelligent , has a good career , well established , stylish , independent , has brains ...and she is really sensetive.

It all started , when I first noticed her in my newsfeed on Facebook , when her status at first changed to be in a relationship..and all ppl started to congratulate her on that as if it was a hit in news..at that time I really wondered about that option , which is holding your marital / relationship status in facebook ! Do you think we should be revealing it ?or hiding it ? letting everybody knows about it ? especially if it is still a start of a relationship..its not marraige yet ! ..should I be telling my status on facebook ? should I reveal it or hide it really ?! should everybody be aware of it and comment on it moreover !! should my personal life be smth published in everyone's homepage in his NewsFeed !!

I wondered back then , and I really did not reach out anything..nor got if which case would be best..however I followed the congrats coming from everybody and all wishing good luck.

And Tonight , I just got the breakup news in my newsfeed again..

She broke up with whoever is , and she returned back to single !! and once again , all who sent their wishes are sending their support msgs this time !..and again and again

I am wondering ! shall it be smth revealed like this ! shall it be in everyones newsfeed!

should it be a thing everyone can comment on !

however I felt like msging the girl..I really sent her a msg , expressing my feelings towards that status and for sure giving her some support..not coz I wanted to do like all did ! at all..

coz the girl was like some inspiring flame for me, and I really wanted to be there for her ! though we dont know each in person ! yet I wanted to be there for her.

and I will not deny it..I am afraid..yes afraid of breakups ,not coz I think of it , at all !...

but i never been through it , and I really wish I never ever ever, and zillionz of ever again , wish I would never go through it..Ever ya rab...yet when I come to think of it I see i can not survive it myself ! how bad, terrifying..it is like a scary thing for me...not coz I hate to go back to single , i sure do hate to go back there, who wants to live alone although he already found his soulmate !

but the idea of breaking up ! of letting go of one you always loved .....of letting go of some part of you !! letting go of a very special part of you !! could anyone handle this !

I know i might be exgagerating the thing coz i was never there , and i wish i never go there.

yet i know that ppl survive , some at least do , and i know some couldnot ! and still live in the OLD !they canot let the past go !! they do not ! they refused to go on ! they are standing still ! awaiting for what ?! I hv no clue !

I have once seen the breakup movie , by Jennifer Aniston, that was a good movie for me and a sad one thouogh.. coz they didnt get back together as they always do in arabic movies..they lived theirlives instead and walked and moved on...

I hope that ppl who breakup that really can go on and move forward ...

But I can not stop thinking why ppl break up ! though I know a millions of reasons ! i am still in denial ! i know that they could both hv found out that they are not matching for each ! both are looking for a different one ! i know that he could hv been cheating on her back ..Men always do !

i know that he could hv turned out to be someone other than the one she really luved !

he maybe was acting all this long and he is not himself !

maybe he is giving her disrespect ! maybe he is afraid of her independence ! her career ?!! her ideas !

maybe Man is always looking for the woman he can have uppper hand on ,,and if he feels equity he gets afraid..and steps back

Maybe He did nt like her looks

Maybe she did not like his clothes

Maybe they both were deceiving each ! not intentionally ! but they were both tryin to show best of each !

Maybe he was too cool ! maybe he was too jealous !

maybe she was too !

lots of Maybe's here !! which you can survive with ! which yu see as I can not settle for less ! which you can live with !! which you would break up for !!

what qualities you think we can live with , what we can work on ? what is the evidence that this relationship will work out ?

I saw lots of couples are just letting it grow coz they are just too afraid to breakup!

which is better to go on sucha relationship or to breakup ?

I can not deny it , it all started with that girl changing her status on Facebook , and ended up with millions of quetsions in head puzzling me !

Burn it after Reading...is it a real movie ?? I wonder!!

That is a really bad one ! I wonder still if that was a movie in the first place !
A movie for the two I most like ..and love watching, Brad Pitt and George Clooney...and the two really disappointed me..I canot even recall what was the ending of the movie ? coz it unexpectedly ended !! without giving you any details or even briefs !
I can give you the plot extracted from : yallabina.com
"Burn After Reading, a comedy thriller from Joel Coen and Ethan Coen (No Country for Old Men, Fargo, The Big Lebowski), is world-premiering as the opening-night film of the 2008 Venice International Film Festival.At the headquarters of the Central Intelligence Agency in Arlington, Va., analyst Osborne Cox (John Malkovich) arrives for a top-secret meeting. Unfortunately for Cox, the secret is soon out: he is being ousted. Cox does not take the news particularly well and returns to his Georgetown home to work on his memoirs and his drinking, not necessarily in that order. His wife Katie (Tilda Swinton) is dismayed, though not particularly surprised; she is already well into an illicit affair with Harry Pfarrer (George Clooney), a married federal marshal, and sets about making plans to leave Cox for Harry.Elsewhere in the Washington, D.C. suburbs, and seemingly worlds apart, Hardbodies Fitness Centers employee Linda Litzke (Frances McDormand) can barely concentrate on her work. She is consumed with her life plan for extensive cosmetic surgery, and confides her mission to can-do colleague Chad Feldheimer (Brad Pitt). Linda is all but oblivious to the fact that the gym's manager Ted Treffon (Richard Jenkins) pines for her even as she arranges dates via the Internet with other men.When a computer disc containing material for the CIA analyst's memoirs accidentally falls into the hands of Linda and Chad, the duo are intent on exploiting their find. As Ted frets, "No good can come of this," events spiral out of everyone's and anyone's control, in a cascading series of darkly hilarious encounters."
From the movie's official website: http://www.burnafterreading.com--live.com/
Fast Facts
Production Year : 2008
Duration Time : 95 min
Language : English
Genres:Comedy , Crime , Thriller .
George Clooney , Brad Pitt , Frances McDormand .
Director :Joel Coen ,
Director :Ethan Coen .

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Many Thanks to Noha Roshdy..First girl standing against sexual harassment

I just heard about that girl 2 days back ,when I got the link to some newspaper spreading the news via Facebook..At first I was like in denial and thought it could be some news the publisher is using to increase his selling , specially the link was to a some kind of new Newspaper...But As soon as I started reading the news I found out that it is for real , and the interview and It is all real !!

I can not deny it ! I was shocked at first..not coz of the harassment the girl faced ! at all ! as this is turning out to be so common here now..its like the thing everyone is talking about now since the last feast actions and what happened in one of the biggest streets here in town.

Back to Noha, I was kinda shocked coz maybe she is brave enough to stand against it , to stop the guy , to pull him out of his car and grab him to the police station !..briefly thats what happend, a truck driver tried to touch to the girl's body and he even caused her to fall down, and the girl didnt escape and run as anyone would do in her shoes, instead she ran after him , stopped him and pulled him off his car and went to the police station and wrote a statement against him !!

I was like so many saying" eih el-bahdala dee"! as we all raised upon..that girl canot be putting herself in such situations , as she will be losing by the end and " el bent eih gheir som3etha "! rumors and all will be around her ,and ppl will think by the end that its always the girls fault !! First thing they try to do, blame it always on the girl ! either coz of her clothes or maybe whatever about her! and they never blame it on the guy !!!..so girls should always keep silent and never talk about such jerks and what they do in the streets all day !! Coz its their mistake by the end !!...Even Noha, when she faced that jerk , ppl there at that situation were shocked and tried to convince her to change her mind as she will be causing herself more trouble by getting herself into this !! But the girl stood on her decision..and didnt lean to any...

After i passed through the shocking mode, as everyone, i was like feeling pitty for her , and for the trouble she will go through ,especially she yet will go to the courts..and all the media will be talking about her..but just minutes later , you start getting how brave that girl is ! she is only 26 and she is brave enough to take such an action ! I am really proud of her...I really am...I am even feeling like I want to give her a call and support her ! Thats why I thought of writing this now..To tell her: Noha...Thanks a million , we all are proud of you ..You did teh right thing and I wish we all women / girls can stand for our rights as you did, I really wish..Hope you were the turning point to so many..hope you were the inspiring flame to all women.

And today the girl stood in court , to witness her case reaching out to all worlds..and Yes, she won the case , the guy was accused and punished with 3 yrz in jail " I would give him more..to stop anyone who ever think it is that easy to touch some girl's /woman's body "....and also he has to pay 5000 egy pounds..I would say the punishement is not enough...but it is a success that we finally find one standing for this case and having a good judgement on it , that could prevent many from approaching any girl / woman down there in streets.

Noha, we all women and girls Owe you alottt..we all do; for your guts ..I am really proud of you, I think this is how we all women feel for you..we appreciate what you did; not only for yourself but for every woman and girl outhere...Noha , we are grateful for you..And again and again Thank you.

God bless You.

P.S : if you interested to read that interview, go to that link.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Happy Birthday To you 3mry :)

I know I know..my blog started to go some way other than I started with ...But I need to say it out ..yea,and I promise you I will stop talkin bout me personal stuff here,, at least for a decent while :)
So, I will chase it now and say it to my Soulmate...Happy birthday to you :)
wish you love , happiness and peace of mind :)
may all your dreams come true ...n sure those dreams include me ;)
Love you 3mry..from the bottom of my heart :)
And now...here is the song :)
happy birthday to you...chachaa chhaaa
happy birthday to you....cha cha chhhaaa
happy birthday to you , happy birthdya to you...chachaa chaaa
sana 7elwa ya gameel...sana 7elwa ya gameeel...sana 7elwa ya KOKO ;) sana 7elwa ya gameeel
chacha chaaa:) pffffffffffffffffff...
yalla wish a wish :D
Happy birthday to you ya beeby
love you

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I Had the best birthday Ever....Thanks to 3mry...P.S : I L O V E U

I am lacking words ,phrases or even letters which can describe how do i feel now...but All i know that I am deeply madly in love with you..

You are my everything

and yes you are too good to be true

and I wish I spend my lifetime loving you :)

I had my birthday today ...I had a so special day ..in Everything..a day I will always remember , and memories I will always cherish

I am speechless Really ! I can't even tell how I do feel now, all I know that I pray we get married soon .

Thank you for bringing up the issue tonight..that was really moving :)..I told you I love you !! I really do :)

words donot come easily ! and they r not even close to what I feel..but guess and hope that msg is delivered :) I feel that it is :)

Love you again n again n more over again

rabenna yekhaleeek leyya ya rab " god saves you for me ONLY :) "..

thank you babe..thank you for everything you do ...thank youu

love you 3mry :)