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For those who really got worried about me, For those who asked about me..for those who cared on checking on my blog though they knew there was nothing new then ! For those who tried to be there..

For those who been wonderin why I did disappear !
to my surprise, me , myself dont really know !

I am still holding my fears , sadness , doubts , anger , aches , pain and other thoughts deep down.
I prefered to keep them there ! as long as there is no real use of gettin 'em out !

I tried the other approach ! i hv been talkin about myself for long ! and I was really goin nowhere ! in vain !
SO I chose t suppress them...and pretend that they were never there.

I am not back ! I thought I was by time of my last post..but I wasn't !
I couldnot honestly...
I kept myself busy with work ..and it didn't work .
I tried seein more friends..and nothing helps .
I am not in love with the one I am ...
I am losing track and I can't even complain.
anyways, that was a short note , owed to those who kept on msging me though.Thank you all.
Take care.

I am Back !

I thought of de-activating my page !
I thought of deleting it !
I thought of closing it down !
I thought of gettin rid of it !

I had so many negative thoughts and feelings , I still hold some !

I thought I can let my anger out !
I thought I can cry out loud !
I thought I buried it in !
I thought I am dealin with it !

I thought ! I tried !
and..
I failed...
So,here I am .

Nothing got any better !
Am stuck ...
and can't really go anywhere !

I am back and not really back..
I still hold the anger ! I still hold the gun !
I just wish if I just can...

ShoooooooT

Shopaholic me !

I am a shopaholic Freak! I have to admit it.

I once wrote about the chocoholic me , and now it's time to reveal the shopaholic in me!

I know ,I can live with it ,but I just need a sponsor :D ! to pay my debts and take care of the bills!

I love it when I go shopping , I feel good about myself, I feel Happy, I forget about my troubles, my pain,my sorrow..I just let go for everything annoying including money ;) and welcome a plenty of bags in hands :)

you know about that saying, when you feel down, go for shoe-shopping, coz definitely you will find there somthing fit you and you will feel happy about it..I do so !

The shopping mall now is one of my favorite places , if I have nothing to do I go to the mall ! if I am blue I go to the mall ! if I have money I sure head to the mall..

and even when I don't I just hit the road ! I can spend there a whole day ! I mean it, goes up to 13 hrs and more..I can go on a daily basis.I love malls,I love shopping!

It feels bad to go shopping without a real budget for that..coz I always find stuff I like and I would regret not buying them if I don't ! .... the image of it doesn't really leave me, that I have dreams of it :night and day ones :) "

I always feel sorry if I don't buy what I like at once " I ever felt sorry for stuff I hesitated to buy , and took my whirl to find out it's already sold out".hence, I always buy what I spot my eye on and feel like...I don't think twice , I just offer my credit card and have the bag in my hand !

"I too sometimes feel bad about that ,coz a shop two steps ahead could be holding something better waiting for me there of same category I was shopping with sometimes better price! ,hence I regret buying stuff at first sight"..I can never tell which is better, to have a look over all shops(which is hectic enough,giving the chance that you might find your thing sold out by end of your tour), or just shop at once! at first sight !

I too sometimes feel sorry for stuff I buy and never use" long list here "..or stuff I buy and find out they don't really suit or fit !.(yes,I buy stuff up to 2 sizes larger or smaller sometimes! coz I liked the model and didn't find my size..I buy the avialable,persuading myself that I will fix it...if it is in smaller size, I will lose weight for that, for the opposite,I will fix it someway!.insane! I know!

There is stuff I just exclude from my closet coz I have seen the local copy-cat form ! (which I hate..dislike...) with low material and cheap prices !

I can't love mine then"the trendy brand with high price" , though I know I spent a great deal on that ! yet I just cut it out!

I think I hold "302det el khawaga "...that I feel good when I am wearing in brands, although , I have lots of stuff in local ! and I do wear them ! and don't deny the fact they are local ! I donno!but I just love brands!

I go for shopping everyonce in a while , I lose all my savings" if I ever do " on that,

my shopping mainly goes for clothes,bags,shoes,accessories,lingerie...etc

But when it comes to Bags and shoes "inc. flipflops" I am a maniac !

I live with my parents, hence, I don't really need to buy stuff for the house, yet when I go to carrefour,or any hyper market, I too can't resist buying stuff for home !..I get shocked by end of da shopping day for stuff I had to pay for and not really gonna use " non clothes".and even mom complains about that too ! coz I bring over stuff she really doesn't need ! I donno ! But I like getting stuff for home too...I love doing the grocery shopping, buying all those kinds of cheese! yummii..I love cheeese..bread,croissants ..in addition to fresh vegetables..it feels good buying those too!

I buy whatever! whether I am gonna use it or not , whether I really need it or not ! I just do ! coz I like to!

I sometimes go for jeans shopping , and I am determined that I will not buy anything but jeans! and I return home with many bags with NO jeans ! coz I simply couldnot find the jeans I am looking for and couldn't resist something I liked at some shop! or I just lost track and didn't look for the jeans in my shopping!

I am not always okay with it ! to be honest ! I sometimes feel bad of the attitude :( !

yea I do, even when I just had a great shopping, yet the feeling of buying stuff just to please yourself not that you really wanted them while there are others "on earth..in your town, your country..other place in bad need for food,etc.."makes me feel sad.and the sense of guilt then kills me.. I can give myself hardtime on that, and I feel sad for over spending money and sometimes exceeding the budget by far just for the sake of shopping !

I wokred on that , I really tried to..I stop myself from going to malls,or I go and dont really wander the place and check out all shops that i like ! or I pre-agree with myself that I will be only spending X , and by no means I shall exceed that amount X.."I always fail in that"

or I just leave my credit card at home ,and I don't go with cash ( but even with that,i could get away with it.. I asked the girl at the shop to reserve it for me till I get home and bring the money back...loser me)

I know I may sound helpless, a loser or even a real shopaholic!

I tried, I am tryin ,will still try..to work on it.

I admit it , I know I have a problem, and I really dont wanna live with it!

Coz not only I don't like it, I like it as I starrted my talk with ! , but to a certain limit..

being moderate is a cause

a shopaholic is NOT what I really want to !

I still miss you Mom

I still miss you ,
I even miss you more..
I wish you were here now ,,
I feel lonely,,so lonely,,
no one is here,
no one is listening , nor is reading !
I need you now.
Please come back soon...Please.
I love you ,, I do feel the word whenever you are not around me ! I always love you , but in a time like this..when there is nobody but you to listen to me , and pamper me..I know then that I miss you loads and love you more.
Hope all is well where you are, and that you get back home soon..
sooner please.
love you ma
sealed with a tear
kiss

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She is blocked !
beware I just could !
You could be my next !
No One ! I will be missing !
I'm only giving you a Hint !
though it was never meant!
That was my first attempt!
Could you stand my bet ?
a hell to come yet!

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I wonder ! why you come and go
and Never really say Hello !

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Mazzika Tag...

I was tagged by Brownie , to do that musical tag..and I have to admit it,
Doing it was real fun ..and the answers are just Hillarious and Unexpected:)

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RULES:

1. Put your iTunes/music player on Shuffle,
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer,
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER WHAT!!
After you’ve answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and then let them know they’ve been tagged to do it themselves.
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1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Everybody’s changing by Keane
(ouf! seems this game has got some meaning behind it ! coz this answer rings so many bells in my head)

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Brothers in arms..Dire straits
(hmmm! I am all ears now ! )

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
You fill up my senses ,John Denver
(Oh My GOD ! this is hillarious !!:) Oh yea, I would like him to fill up my senses :)) this one is of my favorites really! I started to love the TAG thing.....)


4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Greetings By Hamza ElDin !
(I donno who the guy is ? And didn't know the song,I think I never heard about them both before ! I even had to wait till I hear some singing to start as it is 7:44 minutes ! and when he started to sing; it was still unknown for me ! I donno even how it is installed there ! weird!I too couldnot tell from the lyrics if the Greetings is smth I am /like or not! he sounds sudanese or smth! )


5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Nassam 3alayna elhawa...Fayrouz:)
(I just love the song)



6. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
hehehehe, I couldnot stop laughing at this one :D:D
the song was: Ghareeba by Mohamed Mounir ....
Hillarious:) coz yea, this is true :) me strange..ghareebat alatwar )


7. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
ya waa3dy 3l ayam by Mounib
(hehe:) I can't stop laughing really :)


8. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hossam Habib..e7tart ma3ak
(hehehe, yeah ..I really e7tart ma3ah "he got me confused :) ", and that what keeps my brains busy:)


9. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Dale Don Dale ...Don Omar
(I didn't know that I still have this one On ! I have to remove it then, coz I dont like it anymore ! hmm,i just figured out the relation between the song and my best friend ! God ! )


10. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Here with me...Dido
(yesssssss:))
Here with me..though the song is about leaving really, but the title works ha!
Here with me
specially the song goes like :
I am what I am
I do what I want
I can't hide
I won't go
I wont sleep
I cant breathe,
until you're resting here with me


11. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
In my arms.. Mylo-Mylo.. " radio mix" >>>trance
(I am glad I ran away with that , before everybody knows about my life story :) )


12. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
sa7 ya bada7 ...Mounir again
(hehehe:) oh yea, sa7 ya bada7 fe3lan :)...there is a part of the song when he says: ah ya nahr maballesh 7atta el ryee2 , ah ya bara7 3ammal beydyee2 ;))

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Esma we nassib ...Mounib
(hehehehe:)) to that extent ! :))) ya 7aram,se3bo 3allaya :))) hehehehe..LOL ,Oh my goddd :)))

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
3eneiky ta7t el 2amar..Mounir again and again !!
(though the mp3 player has like 300 diff songs to buncha of other singers,yet, it keeps on getting ones for Mounir! :) ,but I will not dance on that one though! )


15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
7abaytak wel shawq...fayrouz
(yepppiii..though they will do Quraan then, no songs on that day please! yet I love the meaning..that I will be loved and missed :)))


16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
2al sa3ban 3alaih...sherine
(2al ;) 2oulooulo 2al el zou2 7assas :)))


17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Om el rahat...Mounib
(nothing to tell here :) )

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Enta el-7ob ...Um Kolthoum
(Speechless..yes:) ..what are friends for again :(


19. WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
Rabbak howa el3alem..Mounib
(Rabbak howa el3alem fe3lan :) )


20. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOURSELF?
I'd die for you (acoustic)..BonJovi
(Oh yea..True...I would die for you..Just a great ending for that quiz, I wished it didn;t, I enjoyed it really :)

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Thank you Brownie for tagging me in this, it was real fun doing it :) and the answeres I got really made me laugh :)
and here is my turn to tag : I.inside , 3mry and seher.
And whoever read it and think of doing it, It's fun !
Just post a link back to your post in my comments that I can check it out and share the fun.

Enjoy :)

What if game ?

What if you give someone *close a present " cadeau" , for some special occasion or whatsoever really..and you get an answer like :

1- Aw ! what's that ?
2- Couldn't you just manage to get me something better ?!
3- I am sorry I don't like !

4- ............."feel free to fill it out with what most could annoy you"

What if your present was something to wear ....and the answer was:

-Sorry , it doesn't fit me!

Too many situations and scenarios I can think of ! and the wrong answers can't stop hitting me !

Is it okay to really say it out ? a wrong answer ? maybe in the clothes scenario,as what's the use of it afterall if it doesn't fit ? although I still think I can fake it, if it is only a matter of color or a trend I don't like!

and I really think giving something to wear as a present is a heavy choice !! risky ! and you can never tell what you will get as a response ! however, life doesn't give us much of choices here, and we sometimes go for it...and in so manytimes we choose to though !

SO, what if I get the wrong answer as a reply ! How should I act then ?..shall I take my present back?!..and deal as if I never knew that person ? shall I punish him/her for saying his /her opinion out ? shall I offer them to change it ?? Shall I ...... ??

What if it's me ,saying a wrong answer ! what I am expecting then ? really ?? a Hug back !

Other than the wear thing , what is the Ideal answer you are most likely waiting for ?
1- Oh! amazing ! ..I love you!
2- wow ! you read my mind ! That what I was planning to buy a week ago !
3- Perfect choice ! I really love it, Thank you.
4- just a Thank you.
5-just a smile .
6- Non stop Compliments
7-.....Feel free to fill it out too with most thing you would like to hear then....

I know a couple of people who really can't fake it ! and they let it out ! whatever really !
I think it is rude ! I do ! Though me, myself find it hard to fake those feelings ! yet I think of being polite and doing the least thing in return with smiling and saying Thank you!

And afterall ,You Can't wait till you get a gift back from that same person you just did to, and it is either a "revenge time " or a rewarding one :)

* P.S : Close here ,close friend, was chosen on purpose, to make it harder on you ! as it isn't easy to lose a close friend if he just says a wrong answer! though a wrong one still aches !specially when it comes from a close one !!

meanwhile he/she supposedly should not lie about it and say it !! coz between really close ones , you can say everything STILL it hurts if you get a wrong answer ! so what if ?

yet,I would like to map it on non-close ones too ! will it make it any easier then ??

I am not in love with myself today !

I am not in love with myself today !
I am bored ! I feel the cold !
I am strained ! helpless and SANE !


Play the game ! pretend you 're there !
I will do the rest ...Expect the worst !

Sorrow ! pain !
Hope ???
....in VAIN !

This is my song...

This is what I am singing now , This is one song I always sing.

It is named : 'Asfour ,it has been sung also by Aida Elayoubi which is a great cover too.

you will find them both here.

Share the mood.

1- Ayda El-ayoubey

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2- Omayma Elkhalil and Marcel Khalifa 's

Ode to my mother

I am not writing this as a contribution to mother's day which is on March, 21st ! ,no ! , I am doing it coz I feel I owe it, yes I owe mom this one, and I do wish if I can do more than a post !

Ironically,I wasn't on good terms with Mom neither dad when I was young ! especially in my teenage ! actually It was horrible for me. That I always wished that I can escape home or if I just grow old and move out !...that was my wish back then! and it lasted for quite long !

I can't deny how understanding they were trying though, how many privileges I also had ! but I was always concentrating on what I lack !

I still recall the arguments we had over the curfew! and how I had it starting at 9ish then to 10 , reaching the 10.30 "and it was like 2engaz that half then " ,and when it was upgraded to 11 , and how finally I have no curfew ! I have seen it all and I still recall !
I still recall the fights over the curfew and me being home late always! with 5 minutes to 15! and how I can be grounded for those few minutes I was late for ! I too recall that I sometimes had to play with the clock which is located behind the door step :)) I always make it less in 15-20 minutes which I am always late with :)

I recall those things and laugh now, but back then ,it was a nightmare! I still recall my fights over traveling alone with friends, I even still do the first time I went out to movies with friends.
I can't deny that I was getting in away or another what I was really looking for ,but it was always accompanied with a fight or pretty zannnnn :)

I always felt there is a huge Gap between us, I know each teen feels so,but I was kinda feeling it doubled ! and I was always looking for more ! especially I was doing well at school, I get high marks ,and I do not misuse their trust ! I was always a model in that ! so I always thought it is my right to do whatever as long as it is not wrong and I am trustful ! and I never got the worry-ness argument back then, especially I was doing all rides by cabs " so when I think of it now, I think they had a right to worry about me" yet they shouldn’t ban me.

anyways,that's not what I wanted to talk about in first place! I am going off topic now :) I may talk about that stage of my life later on, but I needed in fact to mention it a bit coz I need " not to apologize" coz I was never rude though , I was always a kind daughter too ! " I have all the space to talk about myself then and none will disagree :)

anywayz , when I recall that now and put it inline to what I feel and see now ! I really laugh!
coz I have changed not 180 though, but I grew up , and my feelings towards two specific persons ,Mom and Dad ,had been completely changed !
it went from the desperate me looking to leave home , to a creature living with her parents and misses her mom like hell when she is not home!

Mom is on travel now , and yes I miss her like hell ! I miss the warm mommy hug , miss her good morning kiss, and miss her checking on me every once in awhile, fixing my tea and coffee..
cooking my favorite meal " melokheyya " especially for me ! and she do a great pasta too with meat balls...she is a great cook !...I love whatever she comes with !
she still do all home stuff including mine ,she fixes my stuff ,and washes my laundry. am a spoiled kid! I have been always though !

but before I was taking it for granted ,and never stopped to feel it the way I do now but now things have really changed !
As much as I once wanted to leave home as much as I want to live with mom a whole life ! " you may have noticed that I amn't talking about Dad that much! I know, firstly this post is dedicated to mom..secondly , I love mom much more than dad ! I think he knows it ! I try sometimes to fix it ! but I can't help it! I love mom to an extent I can't figure it out!

I miss her texting me when I am out to ask me to buy her smth "though years back I used to complain about that " , now if she doesn’t do so , I either call her to make sure she doesn't need anything or I just surprise her with something she likes, chocolate for instance.

I miss her hug and her jokes then :) ...when I am blue, she senses it though I try my best to hide it, yet she knows it and then she does her best to comfort me ,and get me out of my mood ! without over asking on the reason behind it !..and keeps smsing me with jokes or mother request to cheer up :).. she is Kind " the word is not even close to her kindness"..she is warm..she is a real mother "don't think I am a lonely child! no, we are ??..?? more than two :) "..yet she is giving us all same care ,love and tenderness "though people who know us always joke about her being over giving to me and Bro than other siblings,and I say no! she is not giving in equal , but she surely does give great amounts to each,that each one of us is in deep love with her".

I love you mom, I love you in a way I never thought I can do ! I love being the center of your life , I love the feeling that your whole life revolves around mine !
I love being spoiled by you....love the endless love and care that you do !
I was always thinking of un-conditional love ! and the love you do goes beyond!
I was always complaining about taking things for granted ! and I am sorry I once did so!
I miss you mom , hope you come back soon,that I close my eyes to open on your voice saying good morning and your hand playing with my hair.

I miss you mom when it is night, and you come check on me in bed ,and make sure I am well covered and tied up in bed ,and then kiss me goodnight and turn off the TV and lights.
I miss watching TV with you ! and keep asking you about those actors, show presenters ..whatever ...the thing is I never stop asking we khalas! and keep distracting you from your Noor !! the one series I amn't following and will never do.

I know you are praying for me even when you are away ! you always do...and I love taking the major part of your prayers too,as you always say..I love the feeling that you know there is someone in love with you no matter what you do, and even if you are on bad terms with him he will still love you and pray for you...This is more than love, I miss you mum !

Mom is always giving me the feeling of everything will be alright ,only leave it in god's hands..she has faith , and I love the spiritual she.

I love you mama , I think I have been using the three words recently , I say it out, but you have no idea how much I do mean it !
I love you ,and I wish you come back home safe.

Ommy , I am sorry if I ever did anything wrong to you.I am sorry if I ever upset you ! I am sorry if I sometimes disagree with you ! I am sorry if I can't show you how much I love and need you ! I am sorry if I wasn’t as good as I should be to you !

But, I do love you my great mother , I miss you ,miss everything about you.
I appreciate your existence now more than I ever did before , and I appreciate everything you do to me ! I am grateful and thankful for having you in my life, and as long as I live I will too keep praying for you , my lovely mama.
May Allah saves you and protect you , and keeps you safe and healthy.
Amin


And just before I go, there are a couple of songs I want to share with you.
First one by : Marcel Khalifa, and it is about mother,he talks about her love to his mother and how he misses her..I still recall when I been to Marcel's concert when he was then here in Egypt and how that song touched me back then.


Second song is : Mama said by metallica ..used to be a favorite song to me too.

With all love to mummy...warm hugs and kisses are sealed and sent to you mamma :X
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What are friends for ?

I believe in : a friend in need is a friend indeed !
What if I don't find my friends when I am badly in need for them to be around ??
I address the same question to myself , am I there for them when they need me ??

I been through hard times recently , and only few names I can mention who been there , and they were like doing the show face !
And the rest ! No show at all !

I give excuses all the time, I don't enjoy giving excuses to close ones, especially when it is like I am damn sure they have no excuse ! But I still do and try to play the understanding.
However, this time ....I am sorry.... I am not....I gave up that boring UNDERSTANDING game!

I ran out of all excuses , I can't find you any ! I am sorry ! I can't feel good about it , and can't even blame it on you, inspite the fact that I sometimes blame it on myself ! Yes, being that easy going with them, understanding, flexible and in so many times I just go off my way to meet up with them !

How many times did I call and got rejected in return ? "I know that I do too , but it is most likely as an answer to your previous rejection"
How many times I asked to go out and talk to catch up and so ? and how many times you said you are busy and already have plans !
How many times, you ditched me simply for other ones ?


I can't count the times I found them around me when I really needed them ! They are too few to be memorized !
On the other hand ,I still recall what I simly do !

I am no angel and they are no devil !
They are my friends and I truly love them, I love them even if I receive nothing in return as in unconditional love !
I hang out with them, we get along , I travel still with some of them, we have fun, we laugh , and sure we share lots of things,we have memories, history...But with no present.

I did the blame thing, over and over, that I am sick of doing it again ! With no joy..
I will not blame anyone, not anymore.. I will just take decisions and will not show up again !
I wish I can ! But I know I just can't !

I love them still, but I am sad....I will not blame I will not complain !
It aches that we get apart ! it aches when we are drifting away !
it reminds me of the No Doubt song ! Don't speak !


You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together
always I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believeThis could be
the end It looks
as though you're letting go
And if it's real Well I don't want to know


You know the strangest thing Ever , that those ones you least expect to be there for you, those are the ones who are really there !!
I had that friend who been calling to check on me on a daily basis while we actually were not in touch in years !

I look at myself and think , I paid my dues ! Yea, I think I did ! And you just can't be giving all the time, I too need to take ! As much as I am afraid that I lose them !
I know we become different !
yes, Big differences we have ! yet we still get along !


Why it ended up that way ? Though we were really close and so ?
I have plenty of reasons in mind I am tired of saying them out , maybe I would do someday in addition to the differences we have ! , but today I will just keep my mouth shut and not even complain nor to blame!
But I know that I miss my friends and really wish if I have them There!


Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands I sit and cry !

P.S : I was trigerred by my best friend's call , who just did to ask me to join her going to some concert in coming few days ! though she wasn't there recently ! by no means !
and she knew about the thing that went through ! yet she was not there ! not even by phone !
Though I been around her recently ,not doing any talk in fact as she was doing all the talk and she was enjoying keeping me listening ! and she forgot to ask during her Loooooong talks of any thing related to me ! she wasn't even interested ! she enjoyed Talking and Talking ! she didn't even check on me in any of those 4 times we saw each in a row!! however, I didn't complain about listening ! I am a good listener by nature....but please, no more talks!
Don't speak !

What is the fuss about Valentine's Day ?

I lived my whole life thinking of the Great thing I was missing ! And the Valentine I am waiting !

It feels sad being single , and it feels worse being single on a valentine's day !

On That Day ,everything around you makes you feel like you are missing a big thing ! A Day that leaves on any single sorrow and sadness ! Makes you feel like you need to hide that day ! Or if you just can skip it on your calendar and pretend that it was never there ! if it only goes from 13th to 15th at once without passing through that day !

Seeing all shops decorated with big hearts , red flowers ! roses all around you ! Everything wrapped in red ! couples are celebrating. Oh ! Love is all around you !
It is like the whole universe is conspiring to depress you ! to Make you feel more lonely and desperate!

That was scene number one when I was Single ! This is how I used to feel back then ! As if it was only me then left on earth ! me Single ! and everybody out there is celebrating their love !It used to feel bad ! regardless of the fake image truly know !
Loneliness kills !
I used to have dreams of how would be my valentine ! And what if I am not single !

Years went by , and here I am , I totally changed my mind about it ,about the so called Valentine’s Day
Though I am not married yet ! Am not that old ! I have only celebrated the Valentine's only once ! yes once !

Yet I think I don’t like the Valentine’s Day ! With all the fuss about it !
It is a so commercial Idea ! They were brilliant in marketing the idea and selling it !
And we easily buy it ! and please forget about the Saint valentine who already made it up ! coz I am sure if he knows how they got to sell the idea now , he would take it back !

The thing is we just do not go for chocolates and flowers ! No ! It has to be some thing BIG ! Though chocolates and flowers already do cost !
and Flowers and chocolates are really nice , and not only on Feb 14th !

What is the relation between Feb. 14th and love ?

I think again this is a commercial Idea !
If I don’t love you as enough I will not love you on 14th specifically !
And if I love you as you think I should do ! I think you don’t need the valentine's to prove so !

We don’t need a pre-defined day to express our love ! Do we !
As we can do it everyday ! We can do it in our anniversary for instance !
I admit it , the valentine's could be still a cool reminder to say " I love you " if we get busy in our lives and just forget to say the words ! But it should not be by any means a way of a hell of expenses ! No !

I was shocked by the 180 degrees change of my point of view ! Though I have been waiting for it to come real my whole life ! and only When I had it, I just then started to think of it right !

The way everybody talks about Valentine’s Day just makes me sick !
It is everywhere ! In media ! In girls talks ! In shops windows ! Everywhere !
One thing I always hated and I still do ! and maybe more !
I don’t like the teddy bears and the teenagers holding the BIG boxes that day !
I don’t like that everyone is dressed in red !
I don’t like the idea that all places are crowded and fully booked !
I don’t like the idea that you have to pay tipple what you would pay for same thing any other day !

I don’t like the idea that you have to do reservation a month ahead !
I don’t like the aroma of fake LOVE !
I don’t like the ambiance that day !

You know , I have been asked same question for days now ! " What you gonna do in the valentine's ? "
And seems that my answer was quite shocking for whoever asking !
As I am doing nothing !
It was like I am that Old to not celebrate it !!! I am old fashioned ! I am Odd !
I know I don’t want to celebrate it ! I am done with the so commercial idea !
I don’t know if I will miss it if I don’t ! I will see !
I don’t know if I will feel jealous if other couples of whom I know will celebrate it !
I don’t know if it will feel like the New Years Eve ! When I knew that I don’t want to celebrate it but when it passed I kind of wished we would have done something special that night !
I don’t know ! I know I am convinced ! but !

I know the valentine's crap is just crap ! I just don’t know why is the fuss ?

anywayz, if you are single ! don't think of it the way I used to ! You are not alone !

you are not missing a lot ! there is nothing special about that day !

Don't over estimate it ! it is just a normal day !

And if you just not ! Don't over do it please ! Love is not measured by that ! love is measured by actions and sayings along the year and life time ?! not only Feb 14th !

and you can tell whoever you love the three words " I love You " , you don't have to wait till valentine's ! Do it ! Now !

Let me hear from you ..valentine's day is approaching , which one are you ?

I am OFF today .

I decided to take the day off ! I need it badly !
I am thinking of so many plans ...I want to swim , work out , sit in the sun , read a book " That I been reading for months now and I need to get done with it " , meet up with some friend ..and before all Have my coffee.
I can come up with more !
Me go now..

I owe you an apology !

I can't go to sleep !
I need to say the words " I am sorry " ,words don't come easily, like sorry !
I owe you an apology ,for something stupid I did today !
I did ! And did not enjoy !
I am sorry again.
I know ! I should have not !
I am sorry .
I am thankful for your understanding , it really meant a lot .
It did have an impact on me , and for that I am thankful.
Thank you for something I am sorry about.
Am Sorry
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P.S : This one has nothing to do with following post .

Cheese madness..This is how it ended up with !

It started out as normal ! as any other working day !

Supposedly on diet!

And....It ended up with a double portion of cheese madness! With Extra caramel !

Too much Caramel will kill you !

Can't think of anything now ! I need to sleep !

I will just dig in bed trying to get away with it.

I am sorry. I really am

I always feel so after having a dessert I thought No !

I have a hell of sense of guilt now ! I did not enjoy a bit !

Though it is well made ! And I assume it is tasty !

But the portion of ice-cream,cheese,caramel and biscuits I had is way scary !

I need some pickles !

Aw

I will just sleep :(

I am a Loser .

Rare song for Mounir & Mounib

As I am a big fan of both ,

Mounir and Mounib ..

I am dedicating this one to all fans.

Enjoy

I am an Exclamation Point !

You Are An Exclamation Point

You Are An Exclamation Point

You are a bundle of... well, something.

You're often a bundle of joy, passion, or drama.

You're loud, brash, and outgoing. If you think it, you say it.

Definitely not the quiet type, you really don't keep a lot to yourself.

You're lively and inspiring.

People love to be around your energy.(But they do secretly worry that you'll spill their secrets without even realizing it.)

You excel in: Public speaking

You get along best with: the Dash

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This is me ! an Exclamation mark !

Guess I am ! I totally agree with being loud, outgoing, I think it I say it ! am live ! and sure I inspire people :D ,am a bundle of Drama yes JOy yes !

I wonder who is a Dash then ?

Thanks to Seher for introducing me the blog thing , I guess I will go visit it regularly , as I am fond of those few Questions of Quiz thing , that by answering them you get to know stuff about yourself !

sometimes it is misleading , othertimes you find it just true.

What Punctuation Mark Are You?

lets see, go there and let me know !

Back to Basics!

Back to Basics is what I moan
All I want is to be left alone
I suffer I endure
I fall ! I soar !
I cry ! I try to reach my core !
I need to have it back as pure !
I will try ! more and more !

And just then

I will be content I am sure
This is how I find my joy
Howelse One can enjoy !

Back to basics ! is where I am from !
The only place I know ! where I really belong !

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I give in ! I can not breathe !
I need to find my inner peace !
No One can make it eased !
And I don't want you to see my tears!
I am hurt! No! I am cured!
I Live in pain! I am going insane!
Why One can not just forget !
and put aside all regrets !

Somebody please explain!!

I was just checking my facebook when I was hit by so many albums added by someone I DO KNOW "well”! Or at least I think that I do!!The Photo albums are all about girls and boys of 20 ' a year or two plus or minus’! All with hard drinks!“I know that their parents / families are not that COOL! And they will never be COOL about it “

This is my not first time to check out someone's profile to get shocked by pix I don't really like! No, but maybe those others' I got used to are for guys of late twenties , early thirties, so maybe I can say they are grown-ups ! Not an excuse though! I don't know!

Am not to discuss whether they drink or not! Am talking about publishing their photos that easily! To EVERYONE! Even if it is for a closed circle of friends of 300 maslan!?
Pictures of guys and gals all drunk! In poses I have no clue how they dare to! Both boys and girls! I really wonder!
Everybody is free to do whatsoever! Okay! But why to take pix of it! Especially you know well, this is not your background! Not your culture? And this is not like the majority sees as well! And if it ever been told to your parents it will be a real hell! So why to take the pix? And why to publish them?

And what really shocks me more, the comments on the pix! Of people that don’t at least share same life-style "malhoumsh Fe ay 7aga, and on their comments, they fake it!!they try to go with the flow !! Their sayings go between “wow, you look stunning! Oh, you look great together, eiiii, teeee, ceeee,"as if this is all normal and me only freaking alien living here!I know those people for god's sake!

Am not talking about some other freaking creatures I don’t know well!So if the ones taking pictures having smth wrong in their systems, what’s so wrong in those who are commenting?!
I thought I got used to the idea of girls posting their profile picture in swimming suits! Though I really never get it!! Why to reveal some picture that is not supposed to be seen by everybody!Why all friends, friends of friends “sometimes everybody, which includes all people you know and don’t know! Maybe your colleague, someone was just passing by your door, your boss, the man in the supermarket, your neighbor,your driver,your doctor...whoever really!

Why do you let them see what they are not supposed to!!?I am sure that if that picture was of hardcopy! Think they won’t let it be distributed and published that way?! and just let it get into everybody's house! and office!
You now one thing that really pisses me off! when you see a bunch of boys surrounding someone's PC at work,and when you come close you figure out that they are checking out some Girl's pix on facebook! it feels humiliation and I feel pity for the girl!
I don't consider myself a narrow minded person! Ever known as an open-minded !
where is privacy? Privacy is not only setting your privacy settings,to limit access to your profile! No! privacy,is too keeping stuff to yourself NOT published everywhere!
Somebody explains! please!!

Those Little things what really matter!

All those little things you stopped to do!
All those little things you Now over do!
This way of talking! And shutting me up!
This way of really filtering what or not to tell!

Fine! If this is the way! Really Okay with me!
It isn't about some question been asked!
You attack! You defend! Why the heck!
Though the talk was just on going!
And I was by all means self- controlling!
Making an issue of it?! Me?
I will stop talking.

Zara is opening in Egypt and it will be local !!!

It really surprised me that two friends of mine are completely against the Idea of Zara opening in Egypt! The reason why?! Coz they think it will be then a Local Thing!! Hence, Brand is losing its value!! And everybody will be wearing Zara! So you will not be differentiating really between who is shopping here and who is doing it abroad! And you won’t be able to tell of clothes that are..? N who not?? ! It will be like "sha3bey”!!Local brand!


I was really shocked to hear that! Coz me among those who are really excited to finally have Zara opening here! It has been ages and ages when we suffered of local brands...unless you can fly and do you shopping somewhere else!

Till few years back when the bless of Brands started to fall on Egypt lands, was like a miracle coming to real! A dream coming true!it started with Mango and some other few, and started to grow and grow, You really can tell, that we have now outlets for a Bunch of brands and labels !! Akheeraaaan!!!!!! “Regardless to the PRICES Fact, That they are way higher than those of same label, same piece sold out anywhere else but Egypt!! God only knows why!

In so many times the original price is left there on the price tag in Euro /Dollars, and it also has the price as in Egyptian pounds which has nothing to do with original currency transferred to Egy Pounds"!! It is like, always original price plus!!



That couple of friends don’t really argue about the concept of having labels here, at all! , they only do about Zara, coz apparently Zara is their favorite too!

And they don’t want everybody to share it with them!!

Being unique! Different! , I know how it feels if you wear something you think is unique and beautiful, and you step in a place or wherever to see some other is wearing it!! How about IF many do!! It feels bad, cheap, and I hate that piece of clothes and maybe don’t put it on again!

"3o2da" maybe! But I too love to be unique and I do hate to be wearing smth and find out everybody is having it!! And if you are hanging out around a coffee shop maslan, you will find 3 or 4 of you! Aw!!!


That happens to guys mostly, it happens with their T-shirts, I can tell that I sometimes get mixed up with persons coz of their Same Identical Polo shirts!!


Back to Zara thing, so when I got to think of it that way! The way that I really wished I did not. I think I too do not want it to open here :((

Yet I want to!!! Grrrrr


It is really confusing! When a brand is going local!! And of course local brands as they always do, they will try to copy the models and all and do it in bad fabrics!!cheap prices !! So it will not be only about Zara everywhere, it will be also about Zara-alike “ta2leed ya3ny "...

I know! The original wins in this situation, yet the feeling of Zara Local here!

So, you might think of something now! That they don’t let the prices that affordable to everyone! Hence, they will maintain their uniqueness and so! I say No! For god's sake NO!

Coz already prices are higher than anywhere else as mentioned earlier! , and can’t be of any higher really! And after all, it is not that affordable to all!


And those who go shopping in Gulf, Europe or wherever will be same shopping here added to them a slight number of people who don’t really have the chance to go shopping abroad!


Only one thing I can think of right now!! The Longchamp bag! That every woman and girl has! Whenever I lay my eyes on some girl I just got puzzled with another same Longchamp!! Blue, Brown, white, small, medium, big. All colors in all sizes!!!

Noooo!!

So ? I really donno !

I am Tagged ! (2)

I am tagged !!!
I.inside tagged me in her post , You know this is my second in a couple of weeks !
I know ! you havnet seen the first yet ! I know I know...coz I am still working on it..
sorry but that one is kind of time consuming ! Oh ! :) and it Needs Maths .

, I 'd like to tag whoever reads this ! yes. You are TAGGED....and please post a link to your post in my comments that I can come and check it out..or you can leave your answers here at once ! Do it your way..

Here we go :
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Favourite Colour: Black , Blue , Green , Red , white..cant really tell !
Favourite Perfume (Guys) : Givenchy - Pi Perfume and Pi Neo
Favourite Perfume (Girls) : Euphoria , Pure Purple Hugo Boss ..CHANEL Coco Mademoiselle too
Favourite PJ brand: Victoria's secret
Favourite Clothes Brand: Zara ,Promod , Veromoda and Nike
Favourite Person in the Entire World: My Soul-Mate ..
Favourite Country: Italy , Spain and yes Egypt !
Favourite Car: mini Cooper,Audi and a red Dodge :)
Favourite Sport: Squash ,tennis..and soccer
Favourite Sports Player: Kaka , and who doesnot love David Beckham !
Favourite Spot in the World: lots !it could be a swimming-pool ! cozy place with nice music and good coffee ! a library ! reading a book while sitting in the sun ! Sea-side ! cruise in the nile !
lots really ! ..even the gym , I see it one of my fav places ! and Ofcourse Aswan !
Favourite Animal: Dogs ( a golden retreiver ) and Horses.
Favourite Movie: Fight Club ,Serendipity,God Father,You've got mail and for arabic (el-sellem wel te3ban-Snake and Ladder )
Favourite Singer: Kurt Cobain - Jim Morrison - Tracy Chapman -Alanis morissette - Bon Jovi-Fayrouz-Mounir
Favourite Day of the Week: anyday but Tuesday ! ..and sure the weekend
Favourite time of the day: The morning..I love to see the sun ! ..and I too love it late night !
Favourite holiday season: Summer Holidays ! Sun ,Sand and Sea ...,I cant wait !
Favourite number: 7
Favourite food: Burger, Pizza and Pasta
Favourite chocolate: lots ! Lindt white with Almonds , Kit-Kat , Maltesers ,Snickers and Brownies if that can be included too!

Favourite Cartoon: Finding Nemo , Tom & Jerry , The Simpsons and Lion King
Favourite Blogger: hmmmmm!! hmmm !! hmm ! Dont have one :( ..
Favourite Icecream Flavour: Vanilla , chocolate add to them a caramel sauce ! Yummi
Favourite Mobile Brand: Sony Ericsson .
Favourite Name: ! dont really know ! maybe Sarah for girls .. Taymour for Guys
Favourite Hobby: swimming ,squash,reading , listening to music ,going to moviez and Shopping:)
Favourite Room in my House: my space , my room and I cant deny it the Bathroom :D,it is even called " bayt elra7a ;) "

Favourite Fruit: I just dont hv any fav right now , coz of the Diet Plans I am following !"I already started to dislike Orange and Apples "..But I love Mango ! yea , Mango and bananas

Favourite Flower: Sun Flower,daisy and Casablanca Lily ..
Favourite Qur'an Reciter: Mashary Rashed .
Favourite Ayah (verse): lots ! (من يتقى الله يجعل له مخرجا ويرزقه من حيث لا يحتسب),
(أَلَمْ يَأْنِ لِلَّذِينَ آمَنُوا أَنْ تَخْشَعَ قُلُوبُهُمْ لِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ وَمَا نَزَلَ مِنَ الْحَقِّ وَلا يَكُونُوا كَالَّذِينَ أُوتُوا الْكِتَابَ مِنْ قَبْلُ فَطَالَ عَلَيْهِمُ الأَمَدُ فَقَسَتْ قُلُوبُهُمْ وَكَثِيرٌ مِنْهُمْ فَاسِقُونَ)
Favourite Website: Google it :)

I am a Creep !!

That was the Original Creep by Radiohead ..which I can't find any better right now to go with my bad mood.
There is another version ( Acoustic ) I like most :
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me singing :
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But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't care if it hurts,

I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo.What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

Creep ..By Stone Temple Pilots

I Thought of sharing this..As I like the song originally by Nirvana, I tried to find it out on Utube but no joy! Good thing is ; the you tube I posted here is about my ever favorite Kurt Cobain !

Enjoy it.

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Forward yesterday

Makes me wanna stay

What they said was real

Makes me wanna steal

Livin' under house

Guess I'm livin', I'm a mouse

All's I gots is time

Got no meaning, just a rhyme

Take time with a wounded hand 'Cause it likes to heal

Take time with a wounded hand'Cause I like to steal

Take time with a wounded hand'Cause it likes to heal, I like to steal.

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We will not go down..a Song dedicated to Gaza , by: Michael Heart

We will not Go Down .

مش عارف أعمل حاجة !! a song dedicated to Gaza

Listen attentively to the Lyrics..

whether you like the guy or not !!

mosh 3aref a3mel 7aga ...nefsy a3mel 7aga

shayef akhouya beyt3zeb we ana batfarrg 3alaih !!

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a song by : Tamer Hosny

The C.C.O.B.B,The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

I was born under unusual circumstances.” And so begins “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button,”

Brad Pitt as Benjamin tells the story..

it is a breath taking movie, you can not go anywhere till you get to the end of it ! though it is a little bit long !(2 hrs 43 minutes ) yet I didnot feel it , I was curious and attached all movie , captured by the acting and story.

This is my best movie in so loooooong....One of best movies Ever.

It just hit me in so many lines , like you will never know whats coming for you , life is measured by moments , be yourself, live it yourway..dont let others take control of it...

it lets you think of your life , analyze what you been through and what you dream for ..and tells you there is nothing impossible.

It shows you the fears of aging old as much as if you do young , it goes beynod your expectations..

it has love, war, motherhood,young,old,.....all you can think of.

Benjamin is growin younger , although we all hate growin old , Benjamin will make you think of it again..

I can not find words desribing how much I loved the movie , this is a sooooooooo damn GOOD movie ...I will see it over and over ..I do not want to stop talkin about it really !

Though the timing I saw it in was not a so good one , I was in deep blue, yet the movie helped me get out of it .

Brad Pitt as always Rocks !! he ROCKS !! Big Time !!!!..how brilliant is he ?? he makes you cry , smile , laugh....he just gets to you easliy ..you will enjoy seein him acting, gettin OLD,YOUNG,whatever really !!! he ROCKS ! he is awesome.

I am not surprised to know it's been nominated for 5 golden globes.

For full synopsis go to : IMDB

Do not miss that one !! Do not !! you will regret it , I tell you

Hope then you enjoy it as much as I did.

Save GAZA !!! Save GAZA !! Save GAZA !!!!Gaza Under Fire!!

I do not know what to say ! can not think of anything but"wallahy kefaya..wallahy el3azeem 7aram "!

this has to be stopped ! the non stop killing for 9 days now.for the attacks from everywhere.

the helpless kids and women murdered , the mosques destroyed...

Save GAZA ...save whats left ! save GAZA..

I do not know to whom this headed , I do not know anything ! all I know is I wish I can help.

I am standing still , all we can do is praying for them...pray pray pray pray please do not forget them in your prayers...if we have nothing to offer , we have to do the least which is praying for them.

I also never thought of the "starbucks" thing, but since the attacks started I boycott starbucks, I searched the internet and I could see the Jewish origin, so least we can do is to boycott all Israeli Products inc starbucks.

Gaza...I wish if I can do anything to make you suffer less.

I wish if I can be of help .

I have seen your skies lightened with rockets and fire ,which I think for Israel it is just fireworks

they dont give it a damn ? do they ? They kill old peaople unarmied, they kill women and children !! they kill randomly ! they are causing damage to everyplace they step on !!

they are coming from everywhere , from sea, sky and by land..they have been doing all kinds of kill !

They claim that hamas rockets are causing damage ! they land in like a no-one living place , causing no harm ,,just a hole in ground , while the Israeli rockets land in houses,mosques causing a kill of whole family of like 10 members and more !

Who is the terrorist ? Muslims ?? or Israelis ? how many murdered and injured for each party ?

on Palastine , it is like 500 murdered which I like to call martyred and more than 2000 injured badly ! while on the Israeli side, it is like 10-25 ?!! so who is the murder here ?!?!

Is there anybody out there listening ?? do you see the numbers ?? do you see the pictures ??

do you see the Fire??

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Allahoma 2Onsor Al-phelsteneen , allhomma 7arrer phalastine and Gaza, allahoma 2onsorna 3la el yahoud .


Allahoma fokk karbahom wa sadded ramyahom wa 2agheth-hom.

حسبنا الله ونعم الوكيل في اليهود اللهم عليك بهم فانهم لايعجزونك اللهم فرق جمعهم وشتت شملهم اللهم احصهم عددا
واقتلهم بددا ولا تغادر منهم احدااللهم زلزلهم ودمرهم وانزل عليهم عجائب قدرتك اللهم امين

اللهم إنا نشكو إليك دماءً للمسلمين سفكت, وأعراضاً هتكت, وحرمات انتهكت, ومساجد دمرت, ومنازل خربت, ومدارس عطلت, ومزارع أحرقت, وأطفالاً يتمت, ونساءً تأيّمت, وأمهات ثكلت, ليس لنا رب غيرك, ولا ملاذ سواك. اللهم فاغضب لعبادك المؤمنين, واثأر لجنودك الموحدين, وانتقم لنا من الطغاة المستكبرين, اللهم أحل بهم سخطك, وأنزل عليهم غضبك, ونقمتك, واسلبهم حلمك وإمهالك, وأرنا فيهم بطشك وقوتك.

الحمد لله رب العالمين حمداً كثيرا طيِّبا مباركا فيه ملء السموات وملء الأرض وملء ما بينهما وملء ما شئت من شيء بعد ، و صلّ اللهم على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه أجمعين.اللهم بسطوة جبروت قهرك ، وبسرعة إغاثة نصرك ، وبغيرتك لإنتهاك حرماتك ، وبحمايتك لمن إحتمى بآياتك ، نسألك يا الله ، يا سميع ، يا مجيب ، يا منتقم ، يا شديد البطش ، يا جبار ، يا قهار ، يا من لا يعجزه قهرَ الجبابرة ، ولا يعظُم عليه هلاكَ المتمردة من الملوك و الأكاسرة ، أن تجعل كيد من كاد أهل غزة في نحره ، ومكْر من مكر بهم عائدا عليه ، وحفرة من حفر لهم واقعا فيها ، ومن نصب لهم شبكة الخداع إجعله يا ربنا مساقا إليها ومصادا فيها وأسيرا لديها.اللهم سلط على أعدائهم النقم ، اللهم بدد شملهم ، اللهم فرِّق جمعهم ، اللهم أقلل عددهم ، اللهم إجعل الدائرة عليهم ، اللهم أوصل العذاب إليهم ، اللهم أخرجهم عن دائرة الحِلم ، وأسلبهم مدد الإمهال ، وغُلَّ أيديهم ، واشدد على قلوبهم ولا تبلغهم الآمال ، اللهم مزِّقهم كلَّ ممزَّق مزَّقته لأعدائك انتصارا لأنبيائك ورسلك.اللهم انتصر لنا و لأهل غزة إنتصارك لأحبابك على أعدائكاللهم انتصر لنا و لأهل غزة إنتصارك لأحبابك على أعدائكاللهم انتصر لنا و لأهل غزة إنتصارك لأحبابك على أعدائكاللهم لا تمكّن الأعداء فينا ولا تسلطهم علينا بذنوبنااللهم لا تمكّن الأعداء فينا ولا تسلطهم علينا بذنوبنااللهم لا تمكّن الأعداء فينا ولا تسلطهم علينا بذنوبناإلهي يا من أجاب نوحا في قومه ، ويامن نصر إبراهيم على أعدائه ، ويا من رد يوسف على يعقوب ، ويا من كشف ضرَّ أيوب ، يا من أجاب دعوةَ زكريا ، يامن قبل تسبيحَ يونس لا إله إلاّ أنت سبحانك إنّي كنت من الظالمين ، نسألك بأسرار هذه الدعوات المستجابات أن تتقبل ما به دعوناك ، وأن تعطينا ما سألناك.اللهم أنجز لأهل غزة وعدَك الذي وعدتَه لعبادك المؤمنين ، إنقطعت آمالُهم وعزَّتك إلاّ منك ، وخاب رجاؤهم إلاّفيك ، وكفى بالله وليا ، وكفى بالله نصيرا ، وحسبنا الله ونعم الوكيل ، ولا حول ولا قوة إلاّ بالله العلي العظيم.اللهم إستجب لنا ، آمين ، وصلِّ اللهم على سيدنا محمّد سيد المرسلين.
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Update : Palestinian Holocaust museum site has been launched. worth a visit.

Keep it ?

So ? You decided to keep it ?! Cool
Dont ask me in the furture to share it.
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I once told you how it is all about sharing ? listening ? understanding ? ......
Do you recall ?
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*I could have saved that thought too,to myself ! but I just thought of sharin it , one last time.
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Whatever you give a woman !

I got this by sms , it is Hillarioussss !:))
I thought of sharing it with you ;)

Whatever you give a woman , She will greater.
If you give her sperm , She will give you a baby.
If you give her a house , She will give you a home.
if you give her groceries ,She will give you a meal.
if you give her a smile , She will give you her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.
So , if you give her any crap ,be ready to receive a ton of shit :))

Cheers to all the ladies out there , and lets have a very new year :)

Chocoholic...Shopaholic and I can be a workaholic!

Yes..I am a chocoholic , I love chocolate to death ..I find happiness in a twix bar :) , I see the hot brownies with extra sauce chocolate and scoop of vanilla ice-cream is just Osome!! yummmi, I neeed one now!

I see Caramel as one thing PERFECT on top of anything ! I dont mind Caramel in out anything!

I just love Caramel , so when it comes to the mix , Caramel , Chocolate and Icre-cream ! ouffff !

Thats why the Mcdonalds Sundae chocolate and caramel mixed is still one of my favorites.

I love Chocolate with Hazelnuts , I adore white chocolate too, the toblerone is one of my best .

The Choclate comes along anything you may think of , with Ice-cream as already mentioned, with nuts , with caramel, with Coffee though.

Try your cofffee with a chocolate bar , and see how tasty both will be !

I love chocolate fudge too, and luv that with a cup of tea,mazag geddan :)

I love maltesers ..I love twix , I love KitKat , I love snickers , some galaxy.. I dont luv Bounty !!

I love lindt , I love Favarger and some other swiss ones.

I love anything that can come chocolated :)

Let alone , those tarts , chocolate , caramel , white chocolate , Toffee......etc, there is some shop called Pumpkin , it is my place now :) ..it is a place where you can find any dessert you may wish for !!..endless number of tarts it has, and all are awesome.Indeed !

I luv the twix cake , I adore it actually ..I love the toffee one too ...even the cheese cake when it comes with chocolate topping, I 'd rather have it with caramel :)

The brownies cake that comes with your coffee,know it that little piece ! , just plain brownies !, is my chase too :) , i dont mind having all the brownies in the world in addition to those ones served to my friends too :)

I am sure in love with Nutella , my endless love :) who doesnot love Nutella ??

and sure thing I do luv it ,z nutella crepe .whatever really :)

ana go3t , I need my dose of chocolate...

Chocolate chocolate chocolate ....with all love and passion...Chocolate really helps in bad moods ! I cant think of anything else when I am down ! it is your savior when you PMS ! whenever I am on diet I crave chocolate ...

I told you I am a chocoholic :)

To be Continued ....to know the shopaholic me too.

Happy New Year ..2009

Happy New Year to you all .
I just canot believe that 2008 is finally officially GONE ! akheeeeran !
and I cant help it but hope for a better year , full of joy , peace and happiness.
Goodbye 2008 with the good and bad it had ..
2009 , i waited for you ..for a happy new year :)..please be good and happy ba2a !!:)

Couldnot find anything better than ABBA's voice to say Happy new year...
have you seen the tower's lighting today ? " el-kahareb yes :)) " ..it was displayin a " Happy New year ",,it was sooo lovely..and I just then felt it in the air , that a new year has finally come :)

Happy New year ..to you , and your family..I wish myself and you too that all our dreams come true ,that we become United ! as benetton colors,kiddin :)...I wish for Free Palestine,Arabs united and Gaza's freedom ...wish all the wars and killing in the world just stop ! wish if we can hv our pride and dignity back ! I wish.

Listen to the song , I just love it..
I extracted those parts :

"Sometimes I see How the brave new world arrives,And I see how it thrives,In the ashes of our lives,Oh yes, man is a fool!And he thinks he'll be okay!Dragging on, feet of clay!Never knowing he's astray!Keeps on going anyway..."

"May we all have a vision now and thenOf a world where every neighbour is a friend"
"May we all have our hopes, our will to tryIf we don't we might as well lay down and die"

Happy New year !

No Plans for new yearz Eve !

I have no plans so far for new year's eve , it is not like I must celebrate it or though ! at all !
It is just a day as any other day , yet I am missing some concert I used to go to in new yrz eve.

This year I am not goin to , for so many reasons actually , on top : Gaza and whats happening there ! how can one be celebrating with fire and kill on borders ! with the helpless Gaza !
let alone , my fiance who wasnot willing to go for it this yr, coz of the crowd and bahdala we faced last yr.
anywayz, the concert is cancelled " from the sponsors themselves " ..empathizin Gaza .

I do not mind sittin at home , watchin TV , most likely it will be followin NEWS channels, which will bring more sad here ..who is not sad for whats happening in Gaza !

This night brings back memories,so long ago , when I used to sit at home and watch Tv , with my whole family around ..we watch a movie masalan " sooo many yeras back was scent of a woman :) how i still recall that ?!! "
or we watch a live concert, or just surfing between european channels to see the celebrations world wide ..I recall too, that we used to make a delivery order that night , most likely Burger and pizza..we eat and eat ...then ne2az2az lebb :D couldnot be said any better ! :)
ouff..those days were really good !

I too recall that in so many times I used to hv exams on 1st of Jan , so the new years eve was a nightmare too ! lots of studies, pain that I am not sharing with family this tradition " unless for the burger part "...I feel like 7aramouny mn ahham 7aga ! watchin Tv that night ! Oh god , those days I dont long !

Also, there were times when I used to go for some house parties, not a raving party ..that was like aparty held at one of my friends houses , for girls mainly , we talk , dance , and sure eat too !..that was good too , was fun indeed..i miss those ones.

years later , i had in my routine that concert which is taking place every year same time , which I am not goin to this yr .

My Finace , you should have planned for that ahead ? I donno ! I know I am not into having this night as aspecial thing ! as i mentioned earlier it is an ordinary night.
yet , I used to hv some plan about it , and this year as long as we are together , I think " THINK " you should hv planned smth for both of US together! maybe it could have been some fancy dinner? some...I donno , it is you who should have done the thinking!!..but you just didnot ! at all! you just showed you are nt into the concert and didnt give any alternatives ! though I stressed on you doin the choice and plan ? yet You didnt :(
am not in the mood anyway ...but I wouldnot mind you having plans for it again ..but you just didnt !! good for you that it comes along my not so good mood..and feeling that we cant be doing anything ..the least we can do for Gaza .

Gaza..no words will ever be enough ..to support and show that we all here are praying for you
rabenna ma3ako we yonsorko ya rab ...
with love sealed in tears to Gaza..
Kollena Gaza.

Here is a Year to Go , another to Come ?!!

I have to admit it , it is not my fav time of year ! at all ! Someone once told me it is related to my Sign and so , I am not so good in Zodiacs but I heard libras are affected ! I really do not know ! anywayz, am not so convinced , yet I can tell that I am not feeling well specifically this time of year, which happens every year..
It goes for months actually , lets say for the winter time ?However I love winter , love it when it rains , yet there is depression! I do not know the reason beyond it ? is it in the air ? I donno !
I ever thought coz I used to be single before , and winter was always like stressin on idea ! coldness and lonliness part ?! it is affectin my mood generally...but C'mon I am not single anymore ? so what is it ?
Maybe I am still not used to the idea that I am not single anymore !, and coz I have been single for loooong,it is a whole life actually..maybe coz of that , that feeling is well built in , and became like essential to me which I canot get rid of !! I donno !

along with this feeling, A year goes by.. 2008 ....is only having 5 days left...counting down already started , yeah..and another one to come..a Brand New Year.
at this time of year I too love to watch out , sit and analyze, how was the passing year ? and what I am looking for in the coming one?
How was 2008 ? hmmm, ..it was one of worst I guess, if i talk about the living we do and what the world been facing ..I Can say it went way worse !!..takin into consideration all the killing and violence this yr had. "especially locally here in town ".

apart from this, and personally , I would say..that yr was cool for some part and the other was just not..I dont want to go into details about it anyway.
But I too know , the year held so many things so many dreams which some of 'em came true el7amdulellah..some are still pending action.

I Accomplished not so bad goals along the way , yet I am still affected by my mood , which leaves on me the impression that it wasnot a so good year ! was it ??

2009, what I am expectin from you ? I always write down by the new yrz eve what I am lookin to achieve in the new year..to sit by end of yr " as I am doin now " to see what I got and achieved and So.
2009 ..just the number scares me ! I was one of those who thought everything will happen by the yr of 2000 ! and when I wanted to say like " it ll never happen " i used to say insha2allah in 2000 ,and 2000 passed and I had to increase the number hence, 2007 had been madly used!!...so when it comes to 2009 it will be like hard to say ! hard to guess !

2009.
1-I wish Peace,that comes among my first wishes to you, peace for me , my family and whole world.
No more wars please, no more killing , no more violence, no more Please!

2- I wish..." You know it , I dont hv to name it , but I will let you know it , I ever wished I get marry before the age of 30 , and I still do..and regardless to the age thing , I wish me and 3mry get married soon.I wish he becomes the best groom ever !"related to the wedding we always argue about "! best lover ! best husband !best Dad to my kids later! I need him to be best in everything as best as I will try to be too! it is relative I know ! but I wish I find him always listening , understanding , loving , caring , faithful ,.....and sweet to me .

3- I wish I accomplish my goals at work and build my career really well , and get promoted and maybe looking for a raise too :)

4- I wish I have a great House, which I furnish on my way...want it to be beit saye3 :)
I always wished it to be with a garden ,a golden retriever dog ..swimming pool..kefaya keda:)
5- I wish I go for pilgrimage and 3omrah this year. ya rab.
6- I wish as always, I get better, religious wize...the spiritual part is always affecting all parts and on me especially , so I really wish I work on that one , and get way better.
7- I wish I become a good wife , and mom later..I wish I cook .do laundry..do all stuff brilliantly , meanwhile I still be myself ..I am freaked out that I get transformed or I just fail doin home stuff !..I need to be a superwoman..I wish though.

I like to stop at number 7 , my fav number , though I still hv lots of wishes and..I wish they come true this yr.
Love , happiness and Peace
Happy New Year :)

Cheating on your wife's back ??!!

I do not know why I am exactly writing this ! All I know that I am thinkin of that girl all day long !
She is a single mom with two adorable kids.

The girl's blog , I passed by ! by chance , through globalvoices , as some post of it was published on it today .and once I got to check it out , I was completely attracted ,attached and captured to Oblivia.

I know for some reason that I felt pitty for her , reminds me of one of things I always say to myself and had to do to my fiance , is that..I canot buy betrayals..it is not an option ! I cant eat it ! i am sorry !
and I was always sorry for all the moms , and women around who passed through it , and I guess I saw many living examples, some agreed on surviving and tryin to forgive for kids sake " which myself I see they never forgave anyway , they just couldnot , so their life and kids was a livin hell "..,well some others couldnot take it , and got divorced , some could go on, some paused and stopped in time.
but I know that the cheatin on one's back is PAIN that no one can tell how it feels ! n you cant ask a woman to forgive that though.
And I just can not think of one reason that would make a husband do so to his family and his beloved wife ! why so ?! Girl, I dont want to make it any harsh on you..I really dont mean to.
It is just one of things I ever thought of ! and one of the things that always kept me away from marriage idea..the fact is all men are " 3einhom zaygha "..canot be satisfied with one woman ! even if she is Ms Universe ! he will still look for some ordinary girl to convince himself that he has needs that he didnt find in that first one who was to be Ms Universe ! but C'mon , who needs Ms universe now ! I need someone can cook for me ! clean the house !! etc...and if he chose her to be of that type at the beginning , he would later on complain of her cookin smell ! her nasty look ! whatever and go lookin for Ms Universe ! This is man for me !! and he goes on and on ! and he never feels satisfied ! content !

Throughout his marriage , I dont mind him to stop ! take a decision ! talk it out ! and decide not to go on ! admit it ! and tells his partner that he doesnt want to go on ! or at least he is not satisfied with one woman only in his life and needs to have another ! in this case, she has all rights then to go on or step back.
thats the minimum he can do ! and he should leave her the decision , and he should be givin her all rights too ! but it shouldnot be NEVER a cheat on one's back ! never !! that is mean ! thats cheap ! thats one thing I cant fnd a proper word for !

So, if you man canot think twice before goin after your instincts..if you cant think of your family , your wife , your kids , morals.....whatever that should prevent you from takin sucha step ! you lose then ! coz you cant keep that faithful wife anymore, you cant gain her respect ! not anymore ! you cnat ask your kids to love you ! you cant ask for love from anyone ! not anymore !
and almost in all scenarios ! you feel the fault once your wife gets to know about it ! just then ! and you say sorry and give excuses and try to make it up ! and suddenly , you find out that you cant live without your wife and kids and that other woman was just a "nazwa" as you men love to call it more often ! as if women should by then be understanding and eat it !! bala 2araf !
and the funniest thing , that once you feel your wife is eating it and everything goes back to norm " which never happens as I hv seen in cases around , there is always bitterness that cant be burried in "..elmohem, once for you everything seems to be okay , and your wife forgot about that "little " thing you once did to her, you go back again on HAUNTING !!
What do you call that ?? you never learn ? Do you ?? and again cant find a proper word describing you then !
And what really kills , that he starts on blamin it on her ? and starts on sayin bullshit ! and he makes it sound as if she asked him to go and see another ! and whats more sad , that if one of the family members knew about it ! they will start givin HER the lessons of bein a wise wife and how to protect her house and husband ! and it sure was her fault that he was playin around !!
sick community ! sick you who think in such a way ! even when He is the one to blame you dont forget to blame it on HER instead !! how ugly is it !!
and I wonder if that woman you left your family runnin after will give you that love you dreamed for ! if it will last for extra months than supposed !..you know as much as I know the loss you gained and who is the loser indeed !
so you gotta think twice before you go and play around , you gotta think twice of the consequences ahead. and why dont you think of it on a religious way though ? that,it is 7aram !and what goes around comes around !!

And I wonder,if it was SHE , cheatin on him , would he take it ? would he accept it ? would he forgive ? would he go on and pass it without ever mentionin it in any fight later ? will he forgive that his wife was there in an affair with another ?? I doubt ! so why do you ask for forgiveness if you yourself cant give it in return ??
Dont ask for smth you cant give back !
And I believe , Religion prohibited it for both , to have a whatsoever called on other's back ! and the punishment is clear on that ! for both genders it is the same ! so why the hell the community is accepting it for men and just can not if it comes to women ?! this is not an invitation for both sexes to go do whatever !I am just mad at the community and society that let one live the way he wants , deal the way he likes, fool around and by end of day , community is proud of him coz he is a MAN !and MAN can do whatever he likes ?!? msh keda bardo !!

Their mothers are proud of them coz they had girlfriends at the age of 10 " and maybe less".
If you read the book " The poison tree" by Marwa Rakha, you will find what I am talkin about here, it is mentioned there in her book detailed ..the community helped in raisin our men the way they are now ! so I think we can not complain about it ! we hv to eat it then.

But you, mothers,young ones specially,you still have the chance to correct that..
please,do what it takes to save the coming generation from the posion we live in and hv to drink of.
DO your role in raisin good men , MEN in real meaning and manners not just in looks !
and Back to what I started my post with , all support to that little woman , whom I give my respect and prayers that she pass it soon..
and to you MAN , ra3ey rabenna fe meratak we 3eiltak, this quote is really meaningful for me...it truly touches me , if one can stop and think of it before he steps in any stupidity! IF !

3mry, I know , you might be readin this as well..you will at someday ! So ..I am askin you , Please.do not ever let me go through it ?! Please.. .You know, I will not be the one I used to be.

Regrets !

Regrets ! Regrets !
I am full of regrets
It hurts it aches
Is it my ever curse ?
It makes me feel haze
I am stuck in a big maze !
It causes a hell of pain !
It drives me insane !
It comes and goes leavin me in vain !
If I go back in time I sure would not go for that again !
Life will never be the same !
Regrets ! more Regrets
Nothing left to endure
No one I can trust
Nor to blame ! am all rust
Regrets and Regrets
life is passing by ..
Can I still make it ? or
Even be able to fake it ?
I am falling
I am calling
and again no one is looking
Regrets and Regrets
Have nothing left.

Whatever !

Whatever !
I really dont care ! whatever !
I dont give it a damn ! whatever !
Whenever! Wherever ! Whatever !
Do you really care ! You dare !
Whatever !
You are not even there !
Not willing to share !
Whatever !
Cant figure it out , coz You are almost OUT
Whatever !
Say it out loud ! Whatever !
Come ! Near to the ground ! Whatever !
Fly high ! say Goodbye ! whatever !
Walk around and mingle , how nice it sounds ! Whatever !
I preassume !! Ha ! Focus and Zoom !
Whatever !
I will walk away , am not willing to stay !
Whatever !
I will shut my ****** up ,was it ever enough !
Whatever !

The Illusionist..a really nice one

I just watched that one ! and it is interesting indeed..Edward Norton is doing another role brilliantly , I never doubted his talent ! and I dont know how I missed that one in Theatres ! But I am glad I finally had the chance to see it..
Illusionist is kind of movies will make you think,I recall when we used to watch David Copperfield performing his magical shows, it gave me same sense, yet it was different , interesting and makes you think of it..and you get way surprised by the ending . I really liked it indeed.

Sad

Why are you makin it harder on me ?
Dont you see the hurt you caused ?
Dont you see how mad I have become ?
Dont you see the anger inside me ?
Dont you see the sad me ?
Does it matter the worse you and me gonna be ?
I am scared I lose you ! as much as I am scared that I keep one I never knew !
I am scared that would be the way you deal with me all way long !
I am scared I lose myself tryin to gain you !
I feel bad , way bad..hurt though
I am not okay and I had the feeling I will never be !


Will you ever give it a damn and care enough ?
Will you listen ? or this is just not enough !
I am hurt ! I bleed ! and no one can make it ease on me!
I cry and no one can see those tears nor try to please!
How do you lose faith in me ? how do you let fears and doubts interfere !
I ever thought our love is big and strong enough , till that moment, it took me apart
I am hurt and it hurts
It still hurts
I love you.
I am scared I lose you.

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P.S : I wrote it couple of days back.

STOMP OUT LOUD. in Cairo.

Yes..They will be performing here in Cairo for their first time , in Cairo Opera House , starting from Nov 20 to 23 this year ...Visit their official page.

STOMP are really impressive, I really do not hv to talk about them , check out their videos on you tube yourself , to figure out how brilliant they are.

They do a BRILLIANT music without using any muscial instruments ! they are awesome !

I wish I were able to make it,to the concert , but tickets are really way expensive , they range from 400 LE to 1000 LE ...so the cheapest is like 60 USD ! which I think is way expensive here !!

Even If I can afford it , this is rediculous that you pay that big amount of money to go see smth cultural / musical / whatever is...The government should be doing efforts to bring them over in order to let the popularity see them ! instead of a certain level and certain ppl that always have the chance to see attend such events ! remember last Maria Pages' ! I wrote about that before ! same thing and same tickets prices !!!...

as for STOMP , it is some private organisation who is dealing with this event, so the gov is not really responsible on that ! but maybe regulations or whatever is needed here to make the tickets available for a all levels not ONLY a certain level !

why I will not be able to see STOMP in Cairo ! coz of the tickets prices indeed !

Moreover, they will be performing in Cairo Opera House ..it is a Formal attire then and a Tie !

if you checked out their Videos , you will know for sure what I am talking about ! their shows and their clothes and material used dont suit the Opera house ! you should be in a jeans and T-shirt as one stated in the event page on Facebook not in a Tie !!

But I read there too, that the STOMP who decided to perform in the opera House, they choose it and the organisers had no option ! Also , the STOMP is the reason behind those expensive tickets !

I donno! all I know that, it is really sad that they do it that way ! and they will be here in a couple of days and I wont be able to make it ! I am sad.

What is so wrong about women smoking in Public !!

3eib ! The so traditional arabic word we all got used to ! raised upon ! one of the words we heard moreover than any word else ! it means like " not appropriate " , yet it doesnot give you the space or right to do it.
we use it like prohibition , you CAN NOT do it.

I do not usually surf the net for the topic I am about to write on, Maybe coz I do not usually feel like doing so ! to avoid any biasing or influencing....But this time I did.
I wanted to know , if it is a question asked anywhere esle but here ! is it we only Arabs who still address that question ? and do care about the answer ? and why do we really do ? to categorize the smoking women ? so why do not we do to smoking men ?!!

I started my search looking up smoking girls , and I got in return too many videos for girls smoking "not arabs", and the comments on those videos as if it is smth strange that they do smoke in public ! I got surpised really.

I narrowed my search to " Do girls smoke in public ?" , and I was shocked by a yahoo page, where a non-egy woman was asking same questions,briefly she been to Egypt and was smoking shisha in public , and she wondered if egy women smoke too ? ..she was curious.
what really shocked me the answers she got back...some said that they do , majority do , some said they do not..others said they do behind closed doors ! ..see the page yourself.

But this is assured for me that, the question is there.flying in the air...it is not only having the " made in egypt" tag on it.

For the records, Chanel , was the first woman to be smoking in public and she was badly attacked for that..and it was not quite easy for her to face her community too. she even had one of her famous perfumes addressed for that .."women who dare smoking in public "..see that page too.

So , at least I know now that it had been a cause for some , regardless if you believe in it or not.

I recall, when it was back then prohibited by the community to see girls sitting in cafes and smoking , and those girls who wanted to smoke, they were always heading the restrooms for that..they couldnt be doing it in public, they wouldnot dare tell their parents about it !..that was like 8 yrs back ....but at that time too and maybe with few years earlier, girls started to smoke shisha in public, yet they were criticized by everyone sittin around..and the smoking girl then was like an easy girl in so many eyes.
So, girls / women started the innovation by smoking shisha, and they wouldnot dare smoking cigs in public, their outlet was the restrooms / someone's place where there is noone around...Years went by , and girls started to show up in cafes smoking cigarettes ! was quite odd at first ! but in a while it spread out in non-local universities..schools...girls started to gain trust again , and show community that, it has nothing to do with being an easy one !.
Now, it is a so common thing, that you see most of the girls around the place you are sitting in are smoking ! not ODD anymore ! not telling anything supposedly anymore !
They smoke as you men do ! whats so wrong in that ! it is not an indication of anything !
Before, a guy would have been quite worried to propose to a girl who is smoking " in public " ..he would be okaywith it if she does behind closed doors but not in public...nowadays, its" cool " to get married to a smoker, they will share the packs.
Now , most of the smoking girls, smoke wherever they are..not only in cafes...wherever ..their work place , even if it takes them to stand in the street ,infront of the building they work in , with a bunch of men to have their Cig., they would do it at any ones place too, they would do it in the movie theatres ..clubs..restaurants..schools and yes at HOME.
most of my smoking girl firends smoke at home , coz they are not children anymore , they are all goin on 30's..and afterall its their own decision..and again it is not telling anything if a girl is smoking !..so by time, girls could gain that too, in addition to their image , their right to smoke at home and not behind closed doors.
for sure..it doesnot imply for all , still a percentage can not do it in public ! and still do at the rest rooms !
But..the image has changed, whether you agree on it or Not ! it has been changing rapidly..
The question really , why its not yet changed for some men ? why they still do think its " 3eib " ?! not appropriate !! with the so change they see in society and the swift in the community's traditions.
It is acceptable among quite people, among quite generation,among a certain standard.
so why is it still not among some others ?
I am not doing an invitation here for girls to smoke and men to accept it ?
I am just raising the question ? why with the so open-minded community we live in ?" or at least pretend to be in so many cases ".....why still some refuses it with same level they did in the very beginning ??

I can not ditch the part , where how harmful and even money waste cigarettes are...
I quoted this for you..you can check this for whole article.

Teens who smoked at least one pack of cigarettes a day were 15 times as likely to develop panic disorders during early adulthood when compared with nonsmokers, according to their research.


So , I am not defending the smoking itself ! coz I know, You know how dangerous it is ! but why are you attackin smoking women and you do nt to smoking men !

Women smoke now, out of pressure as men do..out of something they find a relief on ..whatever the reason they do for , it is not a thing they have to defend !! and not a thing you take against them ! not anymore ! maybe before , in old days , when it was so rare to do..but now with that growing number in smoking women ! I think you have no ground to stand on to claim you cause !

Visit this to know how Camel targets women..even in media , moviez and ADs now, are always displaying hunks and babes smoking...so it is like , if you want to be a hunk ? and you to be a babe? you got to be smoking Hun..
Even , around the places you hang around , you will find the pretty , stylish , classy ...you count...women / girls are smoking....and you will find the so many ladies cigarettes in diff colors and flavors..so it is not for the Garbage !!

Yet , I am not defending SMOKING..at all...SMOKING KILLs..It does
if it doesnot kill at once, it causes harm that you suffer for whole living , and in so manytimes one can not afford the injuries it leaves behind..
So , again and again..I am against smoking , and against passive smoking which we all do..
I am with that campaign of preventing smoking..at least in public spaces..we need clean areas,fresh air..

Here , some facts sheet ..it is quite old, and sure numbers grew faster that any can imagine..yet it shows that there had been always a percentage for smoking women..and it was only in 2001..I bet if they do it now, they will get scared by the fact that maybe women are larger in numbers than men?

For who lives in Egypt, s/he will be familliar with the new labels they stick to the cig packs..you can check them here.It is like anti smoking campaign, and I doubt if it reached its target, as all were mocking at the guy's picture there ! and even some claimed that he is in a good health and he got paid a BIG number to do that AD ! Rumors..but anyway , I have not seen any effect of those labels..not even the least .!

Back to the smoking women , and the fact that they are everywhere .. why some are real open minded about it ? some still in the narrow phase ?
if it is harmful ! it is for both ! man and woman..
if it is killing ! it is for both ! man and woman ..
if it is 3eib ! it should be for both ! man and woman ...
if it calms down a man , it does too to a woman...

You know , I might be okay with those who claim they are against it all way long...but I hate those who Pretend that they are cool about it ! and they even share the cigarettes with them ..however they are just not like it !...and they call girls with names coz they do smoke !

Well..It is your right to take it your way ..and it is others' right too to do it their own way.
and we are not to judge any's actions...and whether a girl smokes or not , it doesnot make her anyone good or bad till you speak with her and really get to know her...look beyond and no more old clishe-s....
Whoever .....Stop Smoking for better health.
I heard about some AD ,which I think the idea of it, is really inspiring...it says :
"Quit smoking...Enjoy the Kiss"